Hurricane

We have a hurricane scheduled to hit tonight or early tomarrow, they are not sure when, but we are prepared. We have the National Guard standing by waiting. It's pretty calm at the moment though, no action going on.

More Pictures

These are pictures of the most beautiful Valley I have ever seen. Waipio Valley

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Happy fucking fathers day to me. No one else wants to say it to me.

Here

This is what I use to look like when I had a tan, now my hair is longer, amd I am turning white again. Oh well life goes on right?

yay

I am almost completely healed. There is just one more little spot left to heal and it's all over with!
There really has not been much going on here to talk about, just the same old boring thing as every day.

Ouch and yuck!

OK, we have been using the ointment on the wound, and it looks like it is killing the Staff. But the nasty and painful thing is pulling the staff out when it is dead, looks like nasty dried worms, and it bleeds and hurts. I am really hating this a lot. To be honest, I am never scared of much of anything, even the cancer didn't really scare me any, but this is scaring me, really has me worried. I hope it goes away soon, or I might have to sue the doctor for malpractice or something ......
Let's hope it don't come down to that.

Sigh

The infection in my back is starting to look bad again. The doc gave me a special cream with silverdene in it that is suppose to help get rid of the infection, I hope this one works.

The 2 drunks have not been so bad here the last few days. They have done well in keeping to them selves and leaving the rest of us alone.

Depressed

I have been so damn depressed lately, and not sleeping, been keeping me from wanting to write anything on here. I am so tired, and beat, I feel like I am coming down from a long dope binge. Things are not really all that good for me right now, and I am not really sure whats bothering me.
We have these 2 drunks here that have been causing a lot of problems here. Coming home drunk, cussing people out and causing all kinds of stress here. They are getting evicted in 45 days though.

New Image

This is an image of what the infection is looking like at the moment. It's got me really worried, but the doctor said it is nothing to worry about yet. So I don't know.......

Poor Bike

The bike died on me when I took it to town, didn't like the ride i guess. Made it to my friends house and had to leave it there. So there it sits now....... Oh well I am waiting for a special check to come in and then I am either leaving here or I am going to buy a Car. Still not sure which one yet though.

Sorry I have not said anything in awhile, but there just has been nothing to really say. Everything here has been really boring. Nothing has changed.

My doctor has been putting me on so many different medications to try to help me get to sleep, and shut my head down from all the commotion inside it. My head never shuts up, my thoughts are always reeling. I only get a few hours sleep every night. It really sucks.

Yay!

I got my bike registered today, and got my sticker for it. All I have to do now is get my tail lights fixed and get the safety inspection done on it. Then it will be street legal! Woohoo!!!!!

Here is an image of the stitches

I just thought you would all like to see the stitches it's about 10 centimeters long, this image is not the full sized area, but it gives you an idea of the size.

De Pain!

Man I hurt everyday waking hour of every day. It even keeps me up at night. Percocets Are doing nothing to help out, all they do is make me itch.
I got a working battery in my Motorcycle, so now all i have to do is get the tail lights fixed and get it registered.
The stitches in my back are like 2 or more inches long, I think the made the cut longer then they thought they were going to. They may have found something more in it. I will be seeing him next Monday to talk to him then I will know.

DONE!!!

OK surgery is done now and they are sure they got it all out. I hurt and I am getting off this infernal machine before it kills me. Thank you everyone for being there for me.

Surgery

OK it's official, I get surgery on Friday. So now I am happy.
I bought a battery for my motorcycle today, and it is the wrong damn size! Man I am losing it!
Other then all that, nothing new.

Doctor Called

I got a call from the dermatologist today. He is still looking for a Doctor on the big island to do the surgery for me, so I don't have to fly again. That will be great for me. I hate taking that stupid plane ride.
Going to see my doctor today about my knees, we had a MRI done in them, and I go today to see the results of them, may need surgery on them too. We will see.

Ouch!

I got a tooth pulled today, the left top wisdom tooth. Now it is starting to hurt, I wonder if it will ever stop bleeding, been about 3 hours, and they said it would only take about 3 hours to stop bleeding.
The tooth had a hole in it, and when I ate I always got something stuck in it, so I had them pull it for me. The procedure went pretty quick, just a little work and poof it was done. So that was today's fun......

Have a look for yourself!

OK when I got this removed the first time, it was just a white spot. now have a look at it. The white spot is about the size of a dime. This is how fast is grew in about 2 months, and it is still growing.

I am still waiting for the appointment to get set, until then, you all know pretty much everything that I do.

Waiting again!

I do not have a date for the surgery yet, and they changed my insurance on me and now I am waiting to hear from the new company about my new insurance.
The laceration they did on my back is growing really fast now, and it is growing in 2 different spots now. The dermatologist said I might be able to get surgery here on the big island and not have to worry about that flight again.
This is all I have so far.

My Appointment

OK I seen the dermatologist today, and we talked, and I almost got sick there while we were talking. It was weird, I got hot flashes and got really nauseated!
He told me the whole procedure, and how simple it was going to be. I am going to be in and out the same day. So no worries about me, OK?
The cancer is so small that there is really no worry about it being spread through my system.
OK I have been up all night, so I am going to bed now, good night!

Hmm...

OK the 17TH was my birthday and I turned 28.
I talked to my insurance company today and they told me they are flying me out for just a consultation on Monday. Man talking about bad communication! They had me all worked up over nothing at all!
My birthday was boring, just like the last one was, my mom did call me though. She sang happy birthday to me over the phone. How sweet of her, huh?
I wish my mom would quit stressing about being over here with me though. I will be OK, I am a grown boy now and I will come out of this OK. So please mom, quit worrying so much. It is going to be OK. I am sure of this.

Surgery

OK so the hospital called me and told me I have surgery coming up on the 22ND. I am so not looking forward to it. I am really scared and freaked out about the whole damn thing. I will be going to Honolulu for surgery.
My birthday is 2 days away. Am I suppose to be happy or stoked about it? I don't know what
I am suppose to feel about it, I just know that I am not happy about it. I thought coming here to Hawaii would be a good thing, but it is more like a bad thing. I am hating it here, I am really lonely. I don't have any friends or family here, and I don't really do that much from day to day.
I think as soon as I find out what is going on with my SSI, I will be leaving this place and going home. I want to be back home so bad. Never have I wanted to be back with my mom this badly. I don't really know what I'm going to do..... I'm hating this though.