Friday

I wen to the dermotologist today and got a biopsy done on the spot on my back. I will know later the results of it later some times. So now I just sit and wait for it. Will comment on the results when I get them.

Thursday...

Ok last weekend I hurt myself. I cut my leg with a chainsaw, it was a very minor cut though. Only took 3 stitches. It didn't till the doctor gave me a shot of numbing stuff, then it started hurting, go figure...
Ok I got my first check from the government for my financial aid, and it was $541.00. So I now have $1,000.00 saved at the moment. So I think I can get my mom out here in January for my birthday.
I just found out today that the person who gave me my car, whom I consider a friend, passed away monday. Talking about ruining my day, wow.
I got the farm a puppy a few days ago, and I am suppose to be the one doing the training and main care giver for it. And we have not gotten a name for it yet. I named him but no one agrees on it, they all wanted to call it all these other names, by right, shouldn't I have final say in what the dogs name is? And they are all taking over the puppy, never giving me the time I need with it, so it knows that I am the master, and that it will be learning from me. To be honest I can't really wait till I get out of here. But the home I would be going to, I don't think my mom can come to for the week, I would have to get a motel room. That might be a little pricy. But hopefully I will have enough saved up by then to do that. Kind of damned it I do danged if I don't, know what I mean?

Good news

I seen a psych for my government aide evaluation, and the guy is clearing me for aide. So now I will be getting $418 a month for now till my SSI goes through. So this is a really good thing for me. Soon living will be just a little easier for me. Will also help me to get my car fixed. He is going to help me get my SSI as well. So it looks like things are looking up for me again.

For my son!

With arms wide open

Well I just heard the news today
It seems my life is going to change
I close my eyes, begin to pray
Then tears of joy stream down my face
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
Ill show you everything
With arms wide open
Well I dont know if Im ready
To be the man I have to be
Ill take a breath, take her by my side
We stand in awe, weve created life
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
Ill show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
Ill show you love
Ill show you everything
With arms wide open
If I had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope hes not like me
I hope he understands
That he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
And he can greet the world
With arms wide open... Arms wide open.

This song made me cry today, and i just wanted you to know,
I Love you so much son! And I really miss you more then anything in the whole world right now!