BOOOO!!!!

Happy Holloween!

Mistake?

I bought a little 49CC Harley Davidson replica that does about 35 MPH today. I needed transportation. I was about to spend $1500 on a motor scooter after i saved up the money, but this is just as good as that is. Gets about 150 MPG and it cost me $700.00 doing it in payments, and it is a lot of fun to ride around. Now I am having second thoughts about it right now. But it does get me to town and back at least.
This is probably going to hurt me in the long run though.....

Mental Update

OK I seen mental health today, and they accepted me into their program, and are going to try to find housing for me. They gave me a psych med too called Zyprexa. They think I might have a little more going on then just depression and a few other things. Plus it might help me sleep finally too, and even get my appetite back.
I had an appointment at the clinic today, and when I left there, I tore open the front of my big toe on my right foot pretty damn good, so now I have it all bandaged up. God it hurts like all hell too. Other then all this, still nothing new to report.

I hate Zak at times...

I did not even so much as get invited to the party last night, and got to sit up here by myself playing Pachisi With a very great person.
Today Zak would not pay me for my time last week of work because I took 2 days off for medical reasons, but worked an extra 2 for him to keep irrigation running right. So I think it is coming time for me to move on now. I now own an 85 Toyota with a cracked head, what the hell am I suppose to do with that?! The guy that left gave it to me for free, maybe I can sell it. Maybe I can come up with the money and fix it up or something. It gets like 30 miles a gallon, so at least it is good on gas and all. God I always get the cars that need work done to them for some reason! Blah.
I'm looking for a new place to go, my psych wants to put me in a temporary mental home. So I can get around the clock treatment and documentation of my problem to speed up my SSI application. The Psych said it is a good way to go for me, so I might go ahead and do it.

Birthday Day

One of our WWOOFr's turned 20 today, so they are having a birthday bash. I should join in on it, but I really don't want to. It's just not my kind of thing. But happy birthday to her. Other then all this I'm still really bored.

Bored

This week has been so damn boring. Nothing really going on at all. We had a meteor shower last night, but I slept through it all pretty much. The farmers market this week was really slow and I didn't make much at it at all.
Been stuck here at the farm with pretty much nothing to do, and I am dying of boredom here. I need to get out and start making some money, but one of the other people here took the jeep today and I have no way to get to my other job. So I'm pretty stuck right now, this really sucks.

Ok I think it is better now

I spent my mom's vacation money today on a Doctor and Medication. I feel really bad now, and not sure what to do, maybe I should start a donation service now. But she understands, so that makes me feel a little better now. My head has been really screwed up and I have not been eating, or sleeping. So I think it is something I really had to do. So I hope in the later times I can get her out here.
Man I feel so shitty now...

Bad times...

OK, I have been out of my medication for a long time. Things are going like shit really bad for me right now. I'm snappy, depressed, upset, and getting back to where I just really don't give a fuck again. I don't really have the money to pay a doctor to see them, and pay for the medication. Zack said he will help, but for some reason I don't think he will.
I feel like just giving up again, fuck everything!

Another Earthquake

OK we just had a 6.5 roll through Hawaii and Maui. I am not sure the extent of the damage so far, but The farm is not in to bad of shape, and everyone here is OK. Kona might have taken it pretty bad though, due to it being on a sandy part of the island.
Roads are closed, and power is out all over the place. I have a busted pipe main here, and the foundation on the office is cracked and shifted, and part of the cliff face fell into the ocean. Other then that, everything is really good so far.
I made over $200.00 at the farmers market yesterday, and was able to put about $65 in my own pocket, so that did not go to bad for me. I am unable to go to work today though, as the roads are closed for now.
Will give more info when I have it.

Sigh

Well last Saturday went pretty well. I made quite a few cells, almost came back with $100. On Sunday I went and worked on another farm for $8 am hour. This Saturday after farmers market, I will be going back to that farm for $9 an hour, and then again on Sunday. So they money is coming in now, maybe a little slow, but I will have the money for the tickets by summer. I also have a chance to buy a van for $500 too. The truck is a no go, the guy wants $1,200 for it. No way I can pay that right now. The Van is a big V8 Dodge. Won't be driving it much, but it will allow me to go to town when I want to at least.
Other then all this, there really isn't nothing new going on, just working 7 days a week now. Not much time to really do anything worth while. But oh well, this is what I wanted, so I guess
I get what I ask for, right?

Spiders......

Just thought you might want to see some of our local spiders. My favorite is the little crab looking guy. He is so fun to watch.

Sorry...

OK... So I have been slacking off with my blog, but I have had a lot of bad stuff going on, and did not want to write negative in here as much as I can avoid it.
Other then all this, things are going good.
Not a whole lot has changed around here really. Things are still going good for me, and I'm loving it.
I found the good qualities of mushrooms I really like. They help kill the pains in my back and knees, and put me to sleep. I don't hardly ever eat them, but they really do help I swear!
I'm taking some Enzyme pills and MSM pills now, they are really helping break down the fats in my body and kill the pain in the minor arthritis in my hand and I am feeling a lot healthier now too.
I am looking into buying a little Toyota pickup right now, I am not sure if I should get it though. Trying to save up that money for my mom to come out, and if I get a truck, it might ruin that plan. So I have to be really careful of what I do right now.
I have a date coming up pretty soon for my appointment for my SSI. They said the letters will be in the mail soon with the appointment times on them. I hope I play it right when I get in there to get this damn SSI, because I can not get a real job.
Oh ya, the president of Vanenzuella called Bush "The Devil" many times in the UN meeting they had recently, and many other things! That is so damn freaking awesome!!!
I really can not think of anything else to right at this time, so I am going to bed.